Hey
guys...
...this
is really weird but I was wondering if someone can give me a reason
not just to not cut, but to make me not want to. I'm not going
to, but it is absolutely KILLING me that I know I won't. I
really want to see myself bleed, I just want to watch blood pour
out of my wrist. I miss my blood, I haven't seen much of it in
a while. Not only do I want to see the blood, but I like to watch
the wounds heal. I like to look at the scars later. Now, I
don't want to just hear "oh I cut too I know how you
feel," because while that sucks that isn't going to help
me. I just want someone to say something that will convince me that
I don't need more scars to represent more pain, or something? I
think that's it, I like to incarnate my pain into something
tangible and visible, so that others could see what I felt
throughout my life instead of the pain fading with my memories and
not being able to explain it. Any advice? Just try? But don't
say something that's going to make me want to do it
more...